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| uMH yeah i havent beEn in her n i wonder how to earse this ... hMm ... yeah weLL n e ways ima bounce so mouahs buh byes!! | | |
| hahha today i seEn my boifreind ... nd yeah haha ... weLL n e ways ... we had fUn n yeah ... i have to wait till 2 weeks to see him again dhas stupid ... n yeah .. haha weLl ima bounce ... | | |
|  .... HAPPY NEW YEAR ...
weLL my new year sTarteD owT baD ....wiith argueing wid sOmeOne.. weLl yeah n e waYszZ ... iima hElla boreD maNg ... i cant go any where CUhs thiis FUCKin oLD laDy (which is my LOveing MOTHER) has a Superstition .. bout new yearZ dahy ..iif U gO OWt in NEw YEaRs day thEn EveRy day meaNs u go aLOt ...wDf iis dhaT ...iisNt thaT heLLa stupiid.. dhaS wHY nOWs a day im sO fuCkin BOredwid my life ..."waht am i suppose to do at home??" ... weLL n e waYs ... starting a fres start dis year aint dhat fuCkiin gOOd ... i can teLl diis year iis saME aSz alwaYs ... NOthiin Change .. BUt JUs getiin PreSsuReD ON By thiis STupiid faMiiLy.. i MEan .. im glaD dhat i have a family ... but this family just dont understand me .. NO ONe dOo... every thing is same as always ... nd every year that im a year older .. GETS EVEN HARDER ... is weird how UR parents thinkZ dhat oNCe ur growing up u shuld b PERFECT ... wELL im sOorry For nawt being peRFect ... iif thERe sUch thiing aS thaT ... i JUs cant wait to be 18 liveing my own life ... a guy waht my parents want is a guy that comes in the house ans ask permission to date mEe dha baby of the family ... eSpecZ me toO do every thing ther way ... MY goOdneSsz im 15 .. almost 16 ... i aint a baby no mORe ... i gawta learn how to make my own mistakes ... i dont want them to make the mistakes for me ... i gawt a mom dhat thinkz im a dRUG aDDICT ... a daD dhat dont trust MEEH ... siiserZ dhat dont understand nd think im STUPID ... BROTHERZ think the same .. bUT sOME times ONE of each of my brother nd sister feElz sOrry FOr MEe cUHs yeah they weRe teEnaGErz thEm sELf ...well one of my sister still iis ... shes 18 nd she lives wid her boifreind ... nd yeah ... BUT SHE ALWAYS SAY SHE DESERVE EVERY THING ... nd my mom gives her waht she think she deserve ... nd me JUs pain in the aSs ... wahts the difference wid this year??? ... nothing at aLL ... im aLMost 16 jus 28 more days counting ...i wanted to get a party but i said fUCK iit i tried argueing wid my mother ... so yeah she iiono i still love her ..thO ... i barely talk to my dad now..nd i barely talk to my mom ... dhas only if i wanna go sumwhere i ask ..nd wen i need sumthin nd yeah ... well n e ways ... yeah sOmetimes i jus wonder ... IF I WAS NEVER BORN ... ift wuld be eZer FOR them to live ... they DOnt gawta waste there breath talkin sheit ..or lectureing a girl like me .... i dont want no attendtion ..or nothing ... i dont want nothing ... cuhs i am nothing ... wen i get GOOD grades waht do i get??? ...nothing i dont deserve nothing ... like haveing GOOD FREINDS ... I LOVE THEM SO MUCH STUCK THRO ME ... but im scared to tell them stuff bout my family life ... i dont want them tOO worRii ... so yeah ... but sumtimes i have no one to talk to so i GO in here ... i nOe how sad ... wEN ppl be reading this they so oh waht the FUck waht a retard ... im nawt tryin to make EM feEl sorry for me .. is jUs a journey of my life ..nd how terrible every day it get ... i noe i aint the only one that has a life that is like dis ... i noe sum one gawt something worster then this ... MY PARENTS NEVER HIT ME ... WELL my mom use toO ... she use tOO slap me for doing things wrong pintch me wen i do dha same thing ... but my dad stopped her from doing dhat now ... i always tell my mom she never raised me so she shudnt touch me like dhat ... but her ass was here in america workiin her aSs for us to go here ... waht good does it do? ... it aint no paradise ... my home land was paradise ... but oh welL ...instead of hiteing me they threatin me ... wEn i talk bak they always say this " WHERE THE FUCK DO YOU LEARN HOW TO TALK BACK" ... But in my language... hahaha nd i always wuld say i defend my self wen im right nd they wuld have that furious loOk in there eyes jus wanting to hit me ... but they dont they jUS talk sheit nd threat me bout thinks they going to do ... nd i usually walk away ... yeah im always stuck in my room... i cant talk bout guys cuhs to my mom ...wen i have guy problems ... cuhs all they say wuld be " WHY U TALKIN BOUT GUYS WEN UR SUPPOSE TO BE WORRING BOUt sCHOOL..eDUCATION ..." nd yeah ... they think im a machine dhat dont have feelings ... feelings bout things ... everyone go thro the same way... i noe dhat i hear other pepolZ story bout there life ... weLL n e ways i dont really care bout waht my parents say ... but i jUS WISH THAT THEY WULD DO WAT THEY SAY SO IT BE DONE WITH .... well yeah i learnd how to live with it ... bUt damn u noe ...is the same thing every year .... they dont understand me cuhs they didnt really the one that took care of me ... wen i was a baby my sister took care of me nd she was 15 years old ... she went to skool .. tOOh .. my dad i dont noe he prOLly was gambleing all the time n comes home drunk ... my mom was in america ... nd wen i was 6 i didnt recognize my mom ... i alway run to my dad .. nd get mad at him for saying she was my mother .... nd wen i had my first bday here in america wen i turned 7 ... but both of my parents wasnt there ... jus my brotherz nd sisters... my grandma yelled at us cuhs we was loud they were singing happy bday to me .. nd she was in the liveing room wid her old freinds gambleing nd yeah ... nd frm dhat day my aunty took care of me .. then .. after that my brother took me cuhs me nd my cuhsin didnt get along ... i lived wid my brother nd n his family ... i felt like i was unwanted there but then it worked owt good.. i grew up wid my neice ..for a lil while ... then my other aunty took care of me cuhs i was takeing care of my neice toOh ... i think i was 9 er 10 .. then laterz on i went bak to my brothers house nd lived there again... then my parents came bak nd we bought a house ... nd now yeah i lived here ever since ... lols yeah ... moved so many times ... well yeah ... that was a short story of my life i think ... well ne ways ... ima go so mouahs buh byes ...
- STARTED MY NEW YEAR ON THE WRONG FOOT-
*I STILL LOVERZ MY FREINDS ND THAT SPESHUL PERSON!!!*
-MzZ  sMiiLeZz- | | |
| YEaH HmM .. heLlo pEpOl ...
weLL yeaH Only cherriieS wrOTe iit Here ... aww HOw saD ... ii aM a LoneR eH ... hahah iis KoOl tHoO im stilL surviveiing ... mAng.. iim sO fUCkiing maD ... ii waNna get Owt Of tHiis StupiiD HOusE ... i raTher liive iin dhA strEet ... yeaPs dhaS hOW baD i dONt like dis family nd this hOuse.. is BUnch oF bOOsheiit .. yeaH weLl n e waYs iim fUCkiing Bored aSs heLl thEy wOnt let mE leaVE my hOusE ... waht a teEnager sUpPose tOo do .. eat ...sleep nd get fat ?? ... iis dhat waht they want toO happend toO meE ... iis cuHs aLL thEsE peEpol iin dha hOuse is arE aLL faT ... naH the kiidSs tHo ... Only eM stupiid aDults ... tHEm JudgeaMentLe audLts dhat aLWays gawta toO sheiit ..iis liike waHt the fUCk YOU nOE ... miinE ur OWn biiZznEzZ ... Or liike Wen they sEe yOu they aLways talk sheiit ... is beTteah fOR my aSs naWt toO countinuE oN liveiing ... eRry mOrning wen i wake up i ask my self "DAMN WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL LIVEING" .. why do i still live erry daMN day ... BUT in sum waht ways im happy to live ... BECUHS OF MY LOVEING FREINDS ... ND ESPESHULLY MY BOIFREIND ... YEAH YOU PEPOL MITE LOOK AT ME AND THINK IM HAPPY BUT U NOE ITS SUMTIMES IS ND NAEWT ... WELL N E WAYS IIMA BOUNCE NOW OKAYS TOO MUCH INFO .. BUT I HAD TO LET IT OWT ...
*MzZ sMiiLezZ <3 Dj_teEzZer* | | |
| weLL yeaH i changed iit now ... it waS hella Ugly huh. ... goSHnesS i havent beEn in here dhaS whY ... nOW ii waNt chaLl stop bY haha ... cuhs iit lOoks like a lOner ...hehe ... thaNksss....
weLL n e ways i waNna saY MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!!!
iisnt aLL yaLL excited!! ... yaLl openin ur present nd aLL dhat stuFfZz... weLl so u eVEn noe waht christmaS meaN ... nd waHts it alL bout .. iif You thiink iis jUs getiin present dhAs a same of yaLL ....*tsk tsk tsk* ... hahaha... im serious yaLl sHuld noe waT christmaS aLl bout ..... iif u ask meE ... christmas mean ::
fORgiveing ....
shareing...
LOveiing ...
nd a celebration of JESUS CHRIST's BIRTH..... yeaPS ..
nd family gatheriing ....
HAPPY TIMES ...
Nd aLL dhat stuFf ....
weLl imma bounce so mouahs buh byses ..take cares
YEs it musta haVE beEn -Mae R0sE- | | |
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